poniesforall

I Love my Hubby!

2008-12-12T23:47:21Z

Okay. The conversation went something like this:

Me: Do you need anything from WalMart?

Hubby: Yeah. An alarm clock. The boy completely destroyed mine and yours won't wake me up. Never mind, I'll get it myself because I need something loud and obnoxious.

Me: {Wicked glint in my eye} They make ones that you can record a personal message on [beat] [beat] ya know, something loud and obnoxious. {Internally: wait for it, wait for it...}

Hubby: {Dawning behind his eyes} Heeeeeeeeey! Hey!

Me: {Laughing hysterically and thanking God that I had already swallowed my Diet Coke} YOU! Are so easy!

I crack myself up sometimes! I love my hubby because he doesn't mind when my snarky alter ego takes pot shots at him.

Maybe I just really needed a laugh. Boys are so easy.

The Stare

2008-10-13T19:17:05Z

He had called it her thousand yard stare.

Why was he thinking about her now? A generation had passed.

He had caught a glimpse of her drifting through the crowd.

She had changed. THEY had changed, but he remembered that time and that look: her thousand yard stare. It had contained a myriad of warring emotions. Desperation, loss, wistfulness and overwhelming pain. But now, now, the thousand yard stare was gone. In it's place was something more remarkable in it's hardness: Distrust. Which was worse?

She faked it to the world: a hard, cold smile that didn't quite light up the irises.

He felt it then. No one truly knew her. He had thought that he knew her once. The world just accepted this non version of her. But he knew some of her past. Some of the pain. Some of the pleasure. Some of the reasons why her thousand yard stare had begun. And some of the reasons why she had been transformed into this... current veneer. Through everything she had always maintained. He was struck by his interest. The thorough lack of trust shook him.

He searched for her. He needed to know why. What had pushed her? He searched for her. She was gone. She drifted out of his life. Again. He was left wondering. Then again life will always contain secrets that cannot be answered.

Writer's Block: Some words to live by...

2008-06-05T18:34:09Z

What words do you find wise enough to live by?

View 502 Answers

It's not the amount of breaths you take, but the moments that take your breath away.

LJ Protest

2008-03-20T11:12:14Z

I will refrain from further comment because I'm am not well enough versed on the subject, but some disturbing things appear to be happing within the "new" LJ. Please do your own research and draw your own conclusions.

The section below was snagged from </a></a>gawariel_design.

Want to protest against LJ censoring the interest pages and removing the Basic account level?
Join the strike! (And repost this to your own journal.)
Everything's explained at </a></a>beckyzoole's LJ, but basically: on Friday, March 21st, we will not be posting or commenting for 24 hours.

This and this are also very worrying.

poniesforall @ 2008-03-19T12:01:00

2008-03-19T17:09:07Z

STOP TALKING.

They are just useless words.

Make me feel.

Burn kisses into my senses.

I'm tired of being strong.

Make me feel.

Trail your kisses, your fingers, your desires down my jawline, my neck, my body.

Your favorite movie phrase is 'Get busy living or get busy dying.' **

Just shut the fuck up and stop dying.

Make me feel.

I'm sick of the words and the whining.

Be a man and

Make. Me. Feel.

** Shawshank Redemption

poniesforall @ 2008-03-19T10:28:00

2008-03-19T16:35:32Z

Let's Play 20 Qusetions!!

I was tagged by angst_driven

I am tagging anyone on my flist who hasn't done this and would like to do so.

Your mission, should you choose to accept it: People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated ny themselves. Tag 8 people (or in my case, since I don't know 8 people, see the above disclaimer!) And as angst says: 'Or what? The meme police come after you? Seriously?' But c'mon, if I can do it, so can you! These 8 people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to 8 other people. (And so on and so on and so on...)

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1. You have $50 in your pocket, what do you do with it?
Pay bills. Practical and boring, but oh so true. If I had money to burn (yeah, snort) then I would get a few pieces of good sushi.

2. What is your most guilty pleasure?
Taking my dogs to a dog park and watching them romp. Seriously. I just laugh like there are no cares in the world. It feels so good. THAT is my crack!

3. Have you ever seen someone die?
I've only seen animals die. I've had to euthanize a couple of my pets and I once stopped to try and help a dog who was hit by a truck that didn't even try to slow down. That one was very traumatic.

4. Where did you go on your last vacation?
Actual vacation for pleasure (not visiting relatives) was to Fredericksburg, TX with my best friend. We stayed at a B&B, went to wineries (yes, there are excellent wineries in Texas, you snobs!), listened to some music and just relaxed.

5. Where do you see yourself in five years?
I HATE this type of question! What? You think I'm clairvoyant? I just hope that I am much happier than I am right now.

6. If you could be any fictional character, who would it be?
I'd have to go with Scarlett O'Hara. She was a strong woman during a time when strong women were overlooked.

7. If you could live in any other historical time, what would it be?
I've always thought that the Civil War era was fascinating. Women had to endure so much in order to survive. They had to complete tasks/live a life to which they were so uncompletely educated to do. Run farms, keep businesses, etc. While traveling through the areas of the great Civil War battles, I just cannot imagine having to tactically wage a war. I cannot imagine wives getting the news (months later) that their husband had been killed, captured, etc. The entire dynamic of friends/relatives turning against one another based on any type of political belief is unfathomable.

8. Do you have a favorite saying?
Revenge of the Coma-Baby. (Thanks vanessagalore!) It's new, but I think it will fit in any situation, don't you think. Plus it just makes me snort with laughter. But my other favorite is that it's not the amount of breaths you take, but the moments that take your breath away. (God, I need that!)

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
My hubby.

10. What do you want most in life?
A home of my own and to be able to work with animals and just too many things to list.

11. Which of the 7 Deadly Sins do you think you relate to most?
Just one? Damn, I am going to Hell! I'm going with Lust.

12. Do you believe there is only one person for everyone (romantically speaking)?
I used to think so... I still like to think so. Some days are just harder than others. Besides, I've gone through a couple so far.

13. Who currently is the most important person to you?
Hubby (even though I am spitting mad at him).

14. What was your favorite book when you were a child?
Define "child." I'm going to stick with younger than 11, so that would be Are You There God? It's Me, Margaret by Judy Blume.

15. Do you belive there is nothing higher than human kind?
No.

16. Which fictional character could you most see yourself marrying?
I'm going to go to the TV for this, because I don't read much fiction these days. Although he's way too young for me, I'm going to go with Jim Halpert from The Office because he's kind and goofy and funny and totally accessible. But I wouldn't turn down a proposal or comeon or a sharp stick in the eye from Logan Echolls. But Logan is 1) too young, 2) too intense and 3) will never get over Veronica. (Yep. I am seriously all kinds of fangirl twisty!)

17. Would you give your all in a relationship?
I am trying, but I don't think I can trust enough to really succeed.

18. What was the last movie you saw at the theater?
Yeah, that would be The Village. That's why I don't go to the theater anymore. On Demand rules!

19. What type of friends do you like?
Awesome sense of humor, snarkability, loyal, not gossipy and willing to laugh out loud at the incredible hardness of life.

20. Do you have an all-time favorite song?
I'm going to date myself AND go with the first 45 (bet some don't even know what that is) I owned: Raindrops Keep Falling (on My Head) by B.J. Thomas.

poniesforall @ 2008-02-04T11:59:00

2008-02-04T18:10:08Z

I wrote today. It wasn't even any good, but I wrote today and that felt good. It singed the outer edges of me, burning to make on it's way out.

It felt euphoric. The long buried words have finally clawed their way out of the grave that fear, insecurity and insensitivity had laid bare.

I took back the words that were once used against me. I claim them as my own. They whispered to my id, ego, conscious and all the others. They definitively niggled enough for me to crack. The scream suppressed by all that life had to throw finally, finally, finally rang out. I missed the words.

Can you believe that tears have formed? I've missed the words but can I trust them? Will the words that I love leave me shattered once again? Will they decimate me and leave me littered along the roadside? The questions are valid but I choose to leave them behind, for now.

poniesforall @ 2008-02-01T11:55:00

2008-02-01T18:10:10Z

A quiet life of desperation. Yep, that's what I have now. But it wasn't always that way.

Once upon a time a long, long time ago (eons really), I was loved, truly loved. I soared. His touch, his being, his print are set upon my heart. He was a boy on the verge of being a man but he was the one who taught me about life, love and all of the really cool things in life. He was my first EVERYTHING.

All of the big, inspiring moments in my life were experienced with him. More importantly, he made me feel comfortable with the small, gentle moments in life.

Today I am loved. No longer by the boy on the verge of being a man, but loved all the same. It's been so long since I thought of him. Is this what happens when you get older and "wiser"? Do the memories just rush back to surround you to the point of distraction?

I wish I could have seen the man that he became. I wish that I had been strong eough to have been an instrument in building that man. But I was unreasonable and wrong and out of my league. I sent him away. I shunned him.

Life has a way of moving forward. And yet I can never move away from the fact that that boy forged my present. I expected all to be like him. And they are not. He damaged me with his perfection.

But as I said, life moves forward. Today I am loved. Just not by the boy on the verge of being a man.

Jason on Moonlight

2007-12-15T04:19:53Z

Cut for Spoilers

I am still reeling!!!!! I am a 40 something woman who is squeeling and dancing around like a friggin' 12-year-old teeny-bopper.

Okay. I hate to objectify, but...YumYumYum.

FINALLY! A Josef-centric story. This show is finally showing the promise for which I was desperately hoping.

I am totally worshipping the writers Trevor Munson & Ron Koslow. They have continued to add depth to the last couple of shows. I was unsure how adding Coraline's miraculous survival to the mix was going to advance the story in a satisfying manner. But it's working on me.

Directed by John T. Kretchmer, an fellow alum of VM. Great choice, Paul Kurta, to direct our boy Jason! They are finally dressing the characters with some sort of sense of style, thank goodness. Remember the first epi? Jason looked like he was dressed in a rejected suit from Milton Berle's closet. Even the lighting is better. The production staff is REALLY trying to make this work.

First squee: Gorgeous picture of Jason/Josef! Mmmmm. If I weren't a married woman...and Jason totally liked real, non-Hollywood, non-size 0 chicks...

Second squee: Did they really kill Josef?!?!?! *nails bitten to the quick*

Happy Snoopy Dance: Josef is alive! And snarky! " Are you just going to stand there or are we going to find out who killed me?" Yay for our boy all growed up.

Why must everything remind me of Veronica Mars?: Coraline to Mick in the hospital, "Why does it always come back to this? You're so desperate to become mortal again." It reminds me of "Normal is the Watchword." At least none of these characters resemble Donut!

Heart tug#1: Josef's love face when he faced Sarah in her coma bed telling Mick and Beth about their relationship.

I Wish My Hubby was Home Moment: Shirtless Jason, um, I mean Josef. (Pardon my drool.) Damn, and I do mean D-A-M-N! Our boy has been working out! He's not as skinny, but has bulked up in an oh-so-not-gross way.

Heart tug #2: Flashback of Josef and Sarah and his stupid little boy grin. (It so reminds me of Logan and his father at the soup kitchen when Logan was apologizing for the bum fights and setting his father up.)

Will Coraline's blood, which Mick had drawn, cure Sarah (turned or un-turned)? Where to did Coraline disappear? Will Beth ever want to be turned? When will the writers come back to us (friggin' AMPTP - give them something)?

BAHHHHHHHHHH!

As an aside: I am loving CBS tonight! First, a bunch of VM alums on Moonlight and now Enrico Colantoni is on Numbers. I am loving CBS right now. I saw Francis Capra on The Closer earlier this year. Hell, I even saw Duane Daniels on Big Shots. Now if Percy Daggs' agent can just find him a worthy role.

Another aside: Did Jason, finally and just recently, get his nose fixed? Just within the last couple of episodes, I've noticed that he isn't the noisy breather he used to be.

I feel much better now....

Thanks and have a great weekend.

poniesforall @ 2007-12-13T19:42:00

2007-12-14T02:19:59Z

snagged from somewhere on the </a></a>vm_santafriends list and in answer to angst_driven
Character Meme:

First, write down the names of 12 characters (it's best when they're all from the same fandom, but whatever). Then read and answer the questions. Don't look at the questions until you write down the 12 characters you're going to use or it won't be funny/amusing.

My List:
1.Veronica Mars, VM
2. Logan Echolls, VM
3. Wallace Fennel, VM
4. Cindy "Mac" MacKenzie, VM
5. Eli "Weevil" Navarro, VM
6. Keith Mars, VM
7. Duncan Kane, VM
8. Lilly Kane, VM
9. Stosh "Piz" Piznarski, VM
10. Corny, VM
11. Principal Clemmons, VM
12. Jake Kane, VM

Have you read a 6/11 fic? Do you want to? (Keith/Clemmons)
I haven't seen a fic, but it might be interesting seeing how they are the smartest men in V's life

Do you think 4 is hot? How hot? (Mac)
I'm sure some people think so, but I'm all about the boys, boys, boys

What would happen if 12 got 8 pregnant? (Jake--->Lilly)
A two-headed baby? EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

Can you rec any fics about 9? (Piz)
I can't remember who authored it, but I read a VERY dark piece where Piz killed Logan AND Veronica. I cried for days

Would 2 and 6 make a good couple? (Logan/Keith)
Ummmm...only in the son/father sense. I think Keith would totally mentor Logan because Keith just rocks!!!

5/9 or 5/10? Why? (Weevil/Piz or Weevil/Corny)
Yeah...I'm going with Weevil/Corny - dealer/user

What would happen if 7 walked in on 2 and 12 having sex? (Donut walks in on Logan and Jake)
That is just all kinds of psychotherapy waiting to happen. (This is me trying to slap the image out of my brain)

Make up a summary for a 3/10 fic. (Wallace/Corny)
Wallace, tired of Logan ignoring him, turns to Corny to exact his revenge at Logan's poker game

Is there any such thing as 1/8 fluff? (Veronica/Lilly)
You betcha and it's all kinds of fun - I liked their relationship. Lilly always had higher aspirations for Veronica than to become just another vapid 09er

Suggest a title for a 7/12 hurt/comfort fic. (Duncan/Jake)
"The Men of Her Family"

What kind of plot device would you use if you wanted 4 to deflower 1? (Mac/Veronica)
I'm not EVEN going to touch that

Does anyone on your friends list read 7 slash? Duncan
I bet they do because they all hate Duncan

Does anyone on your friends list read 3 het? Wallace
Since I don't know what "het" is, beats me

Would anyone on your friends list write 2/4/5? (Logan/Mac/Weevil)
Any takers?

What might 10 scream out at a moment of great passion? (Corny)
Ok, that just makes me chuckle. I just think he would say (loudly), "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"

If you wrote a songfic about 8, which song would you choose? (Lilly)
"The Woman in Red"

If you wrote a 1/6/12 fic, what would the warnings be? (Veronica/Keith/Jake)
Mentions of incestuous relations, language and character death

What might be a good pick-up line for 2 to use on 10? (Logan on Corny)
*whyohwhy* "Dude, that bong was all kinds of sweet!"

When was the last time you read a fic about 5? (Weevil)
Today. I was re-reading some shangri_la fics. The envy POV was intriguing

What's 6's super-secret kink? (Keith)
Handcuffs and Padre's paraphenalia come to mind...

Would 11 shag 9? Drunk or sober? (Clemmons/Piz)
God, I certainly hope drunk

"1 and 9 are in a happy relationship until 9 suddenly runs off with 4. 1, broken-hearted, has a hot one-night stand with 11 and a brief, unhappy affair with 12, then follows the wise advice of 5 and finds true love with 3." What title would you give this fic? Name three people on your friends list who might read it. Name one person who should write it. (Veronica and Piz are in a happy relationship (ick) until Piz suddenly runs off with Mac. Veronica, broken hearted, has a one-night stand with Principal Clemmons and a brief unhappy affair with Jake, then follows the wise advice of Weevil and finds true love with Wallace.)

Title: "When Will I be Loved?"
Who Would Read: Noone. There is just so much wrong with the above summary, you'd really have to be on some good-ass drugs, booze and/or really good pasta.
Who Should Write It: Who's on the best drugs right now?

How would you feel if 7/8 was canon? (Duncan/Lilly)
Why are all of my entries vaguely, if not outright, incestuous? (I did not plan this, really) I must go find a therapist now.

Who would make a better college professor: 6 or 11? (Keith/Clemmons)
Keith would keep me amused, but I think Van would learn me the most

Do you think 2 is hot? How hot? (Logan)
*drooldrooldrool* Ummmm, what was the question again?

12 sends 8 on a mission. What is it and does it succeed? (Jake--->Lilly)
Jake sends Lilly on an espionage mission to Microsoft. Of course she succeeds. She is the fabulous Lilly Kane seducing Bill Gates.

What would 5 most likely be arrested for? (Weevil)
Battery for holding an 09er over the Coronado Bridge due to his vandalism

If you had to walk home through a bad neighborhood late at night, would you feel safer in the company of 7 or 8? (Duncan/Lilly)
Yeah. I'm going with Lilly. Duncan is just a donut.

Martha-ology

2007-10-26T13:58:19Z

Let others know a little more about yourself, repost this as your name followed by "ology."
(snagged from angst_driven who snagged it from dishyfishy who snagged it fromfire_fly_stare_)

MOUTHOLOGY

Q. What is your salad dressing of choice?
A. Lite-anything

Q. What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
A. Subway

Q. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
A. Ten-shei (Sushi)

Q. On average, what size tip do you leave at a restaurant?
A. Average service, 20%: great service, more

Q. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
A. Pizza

Q. What are your pizza toppings of choice?
A. Spinach, mushrooms and tomato

Q. What do you like to put on your toast?
A. peach jam

TECHNOLOGY

Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer?
A. Firecracker and Sarge (my cats) snuggled up to each other (which NEVER happens)

Q. How many televisions are in your house?
A. 3, but only 2 are used

BIOLOGY

Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
A. Right-handed.

Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
A. tonsils, 9 baby teeth, 3 molar extractions (although, I guess that doesn't count as removal)

Q. When was the last time you had a cavity?
A. When I was a kid - I got all of my cavities at the same time - yay! me

Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
A. 50 lb weight at the gym - I removed it from some equipment I wanted to use

Q. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
A. Just with anesthesia and I fainted once hitting my head (hard) on the ground - apparently my head actually bounced!

BULL[CRAP]OLOGY

Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
A. No.

Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
A. Margery Benderfall

Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
A. Green

Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake?
A. Bugs, bugs, bugs...

Q. Have you ever saved someone's life?
A. Nope, wish that I had

Q. Has someone ever saved yours?
A. Divine Intervention...

DAREOLOGY

Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
A. Sure

Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
A. Not - don't like pain!

Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000?
A. Hell, yes

Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
A. Ummmm, negatory

Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
A. Maybe

Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
A. No

DUMBOLOGY

Q: What is in your left pocket?
A. Nothing right now

Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
A: So did NOT think so. I do not see what the fuss is all about

Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
A: Carpet, but I prefer hardwood

Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
A: Um, stand. Who doesn't? <- thanks, Jen

Q: Could you live with roommates?
A: I have. And still do.

Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
A: Ummm, too many to count (shoes are shoes, right? :) )

Q: Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
A: I got CAUGHT speeding about 2 yrs ago (I feel the need for speed!)

Q: What do you want to be when you grow up?
A: Anything else than what I am now

LASTOLOGY

Q: Last Friend you talked to?
A. Gannon

Q: Last person who called you?
A. Hubby

Q: Person you hugged?
A: Hubby

FAVORITOLOGY

Q: Number?
A: 528 (from the top of my head)

Q: Season?
A: Spring

CURRENTOLOGY
Q: Missing someone?
A. Always

Q: Watching?
A. Veronica Mars, Season 3 (OK, not at this exact moment, but soon...) <- me too, Jen!

Q: Worrying about?
A. Marriage, life in general, my friend

RANDOMOLOGY

Q: First place you went this morning?
A: Walk with my precious pups (yayyayayayayayay!)

Q: What can you not wait to do?
A. Veronica Mars S3 - I am totally, unabashedly hooked, hooked, hooked!

Q: What's the last movie you saw?
A. Cannot remember because I am consumed with VM and the new TV season (I am a huge geek!) :-)

Q: Do you smile often?
A: Not really

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: I'm tough, but I'm friendly until there is no reason to be

Q. What's your favorite soup?
A. Black Bean

Q. What do you think of your friends on the internet?
A. I'm just so thrilled to finally have friends on the internet! <-This is me agreeing with Jen

KBell and Heroes at the Emmys

2007-10-03T19:28:03Z

I thought this was frakking HIGH-larious.

Apparently Adrian Pasdar posts shorts from his home movies on You Tube. This is their 2007 Emmy fun:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ulI1ioVfNsY